Allowing fear to rule?

Commentary that struck my heart. Thank you dear God.

Nehemiah 2:2-3

"..he refuse to allow fear to stop him from doing what God had called him to do. When we allow our fears to rule us, we make fear more powerful than God.

God is greater than all your fears. Recognizing why you are afraid is the first step in commuting it to God. Realize that if God has called you to a task, he will help you accomplish it. "

Take from study bible. 

Personally, I was very afraid to call her. Referring back to this commentary, I need to know why am I so afraid. She will say mean words and destructive words to accuse me. Truth is, non of these are real. Her words will not hurt me or define who I am. I am who God defines that I am, I am who God says I am. 

"Dear God, give me the breastplate of righteousness and the shield of faith to stop the fiery darts against me. "

Fear that cripples me

Since Sunday, this fear have been crippling my thoughts. I have not been able to sleep well ever since. Even when I was so tired, my physical body just would not rest. Finally last night, I took sleep aid. :) Thank God for a good night sleep. 

God spoke to me through Nehemiah. 

Chap1:5 Nehemiah fasted and prayed for several days, expressing his sorrows for Isreal"s sin and his desire that Jerusalem would come alive again to worship the one true God. Nehemiah effective prayer consist REPENTANCE. 

Abby, you should do the same. Fast and pray for your sorrows in your heart, regarding to your own sin and your desire to see the relationship to be rebuild again. REPENTANCE is the key.