City Harvest Church after verdict

Friday was the verdict. SATURDAY IS Church service. OMGosh, this is so stretching for us as a church. 

I was in church for the Past two days, I was asking Ben, how r we going to praise God this time? the pain of separation from our love ones is actually the worst kind of pain, Pastor Kong and the other 6 accused are going to serve the sentence in 2weeks time.For this verdict, I was really believing for Pastor and the rest to be acquitted. My faith is lifted to new level of believing for miracles in desperate times like this. 

I attended prayer meeting this morning. (Sunday) Pastor Ming started prayer meeting sharing this:

Mary and Martha told Jesus, Lazarus their beloved brother already dead for 4 days, the flesh is rotting and there was a bad odor. In such grim situation, what more can really be done? All hope is lost, hearts are aching, head start to analyze logically, their souls cry out " God, what more can you really do?"

BUT, Jesus said to her (Martha),

“I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die;  and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?” Jesus wept. John 11:25‭-‬26, 35 NIV

Whatever situation you are in, JESUS do care about your feelings, He do care about your well being, your welfare. Do you believe that God cares deeply for what is happening in City Harvest Church? God do care your every heartache, your every tear drop, your every cry. 

Especially on Saturday, the whole atmosphere was really sombre (at the beginning), we didn't sing praise songs, instead we worship. SATURDAY service was packed.

GREATER ARE YOU, OVER THE WORST OF TIME, UNDER YOUR LOVING RAIN IM RESTORED.

IT is well with my soul, let go my soul and trust in Him, the waves and wind still know His name...

Every song we sing, it's the cry from our hearts. Hot tears flow endlessly, our hearts are aching. It's our deepest pain, our desperate cry. Really there is no answers, we can only trust in Him. Our LOVING God.

Pastor Kong address us

"We serve a God that knows the end from the beginning.

we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose Romans 8:28 New King James Version

I am very proud of every one of you. Many of you came to a new depth of spiritual maturity. God will bring healing and closure. City Harvest Church, be united in your spirit. Love God whole heartedly, love people fervently. "

When Pastor Kong was addressing us,  I was really sad, the fact that he is our spiritual father, He have done his best for us as a spiritual family and now He is being taken away by force from us for such a long time. It is the pain of knowing your father is suffering but you can only watch and do nothing, it is really helpless.

The most cruel part of this whole ordeal is when heartless and insensitive people around cast judgment as if they know everything, kept taunting and mercilessly hurting our spiritual family for the past 7 years. Honestly, if any of you who doesn't belong to the church have nothing better to say, can just shut up? whatever you say only reflects who you really are as a person

As a normal human being, I am really angry and bitter when it hurts, but more than that, pastors in church shared, instead of reacting, respond in love. It's not an easy decision to forgive, but I choose to love, not with my own human strength, but it's truly by God's grace.

Many members wipe their tears quietly at their own seats, Ben and I just can't stop tearing. Two packets of tissue used. At least I know, I'm not overly emotional, I'm surrounded by family members that feel the same way as I do. 

Dear Lord, I pray that you come to fill up every of our hearts as a church with your unfailing love. ANCHOR OUR soul deep inside your love forever and ever.

Gonna blog more tomorrow.