another awesome sunday nite!!

it was suppose to be just another simple mahjong's nite with a few good fr ens. we were having a good time, 02, zhi seng, shan ming n Jon were playing mahjong's..10cents game. ha!! its just for fun. i guess they played for at least 2hours? then Jon n Denise were bz cooking. after i painted my nails and check out the leaflets tat i brought back from last nite's travel fair, we were talking, laughing. prepared a simple dinner, eating, and followed by the next course. blue n Camemberts cheese with Italian Castiglioni wine... fresh lychee's from hong Kong.We were really enjoying each other's company.

Then whilst we were talking, I was telling how Denise wanted to join the choir ministry and she was so nervous. we were talking about wanting to go for audition for choir in church ministry together with Denise, its like giving her some moral support at the meantime can try it out too for ourselves. ha!!. so, 02 say, she wanted to give it a try too, i thought..OO tat is awesome. who knows, when she is preparing the song, she have to sing and understand the lyrics, who knows she will come to know God. After all, when i first experience God is when i heard the song from the old radio, Lamb of God. Caz God is such an awesome God. u NV know WATS his plans n Wat is he going to do, He got a plan long time ago before when we were born, He have a plan to bring us back to Him.. true enuff. we wanted to just know how to sing those two songs for audition...in the end.....Miracle happens...

We search the songs through You tube, and have a simple sngi along session, to see who can sing better. ha ha!! we were singing out hearts out. at the same time we are just preparing our heart to see if we are ready for this choir ministry. anyway, church's choir is really amazing and dynamic!!!! Anabel is super awesome and pretty!! she's almost perfect. actually she is perfect in my eyes! din know all these praise and worhsip song, we were actually preparing the atmosphere for God to arrive into Denise's house!!!

In the midst of the songs..God's presence was so strong..02's heart was so touched by the holy spirit, in the end, we just wanted to check out our fave songs and have a praise and worship sing along session, become a session to praise n worship God. I'm sure, me, shan ming, denise, john and zhi seng were totally aware God is already in our midst. I said a quiet prayer to God, to touch 02's heart. n after tat, a minute later , 02 came to sit next to me..she told me she need a hug from me. at that point of time, i know!! God touches her heart. here eyes were wet!! God's presence was so tangible!!!! i was speaking in tongues quietly.ha!! n praising God!!! Hallelujah!..02 was so quiet..she was so touched. i can tell tat God is doing something in her life!! OMG!! it was such an awesome time. a simple dinner turned out to be!!! a praise n worship session. in the end...we ended the whole meeting with a prayer...i felt so much to pray for us...with the last song. this is my devotion, to give my life to you oh Lord!! it was such a powerful song. God will definitely bring us to a higher place..and i cant wait!! and i am so sure, 02 will meet god one day n come to receive Christ.. i am so sure!!

 praise God!! Hallelujah! I thank God for such an awesome night out!! It was awesome!!

给天父的留言。

很优美的音乐。人间天堂，听着这首歌，(Kari Jobe 唱的歌，I'm in love with you)让我想起天堂的美，平静，欢乐。。希望你也会喜欢，因为我真的很喜欢。

听见吗？他说，”别怕，因为我爱你。有我在，没事的。”

刚在面皮书上留言。

听着听着，好像听到了。谢谢你，天父。
寂寞的心灵，没有你的爱，会很难熬过去。
是的，在世上，还有谁比你更真实，更爱我。
有时会觉得生命很孤单，很寂寞。
是魔鬼吧，一直在我耳边不停的说。。。
一直在我脑海说。。你一个人，谁会想起你，谁会爱你？

谢谢你天父。当我快要被说服时，你总是用尽办法，把我拉回来。
今天，我走进书局是，看见书架上的那两本书。
Soul Surfer. 一本是Devotional book, 另一本是自传.

感动的是，在她身上，看见了你。
那女孩说，虽然不幸发生在她身上，但她从来没有埋怨过。
因为，这是，让她勇敢了起来。生命也不一样了。
她说，人的生命啊，若交到神的手中，就变得很不一样了。
神借着她，显示神对你我的爱。
给了我们希望。就算失去一切，有了爱，有了希望，生命可以活得很精彩。
看了那本书，觉得自己面对的，是芝麻绿豆的事。
在平凡的每一天，就算感觉不到他，看不见，听不到，又如何？
心里确实，他一直在我身边，爱着我，鼓励着我。
我听见了。也知道。
你没有放开过我的手。

singing to my faithful God

Complete lyrics: http://www.directlyrics.com/kari-jobe-you-are-for-me-lyrics.htmlComplete lyrics: http://www.directlyrics.com/kari-jobe-you-are-for-me-lyrics.h

You are for me

By Kari Jobe

So faithful
So constant
So loving and so true
So powerful in all You do

You fill me
You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to You

I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never
Forsake me in my weakness

And I know that You have come down
Even if to ride upon my heart
To remind me who You are

So patient
So gracious
So merciful and true
So wonderful in all You do

You fill me
You see me
You know my every move
And You love for me to sing to You

And Lord, I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never
Forsake me in my weakness

And I know that You have come down
Even if to ride upon my heart
To remind me

I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never
Forsake me in my weakness

And I know that You have come down
Even if to ride upon my heart
To remind me who You are

You remind me

I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never
Forsake me in my weakness

And I know that You have come down
Even if to ride upon my heart
To remind me who You are

ps: every time when i listen to this song, i remember how good god is. I know Lord, that you are here for me. even sometimes when i do not feel you or here you. But i remember, your goodness. I look out the sky, i see the stars, that you have given Abraham. when i walk on the street and a gentle breeze came, i know you are there for me. this song touches my heart, reminding me, God's faithfulness, constant love that never leaves me. 

I know that you are for me

just now i was listening to Kari Jobe's song, You are for me. 

you know somehow i feel how great God is. tat time when i was really and depressed, 

i read all the right scriptures, how he is my savior, my refuge in psalm. how he have a plan for me in Jeremiah, and listen to all the right songs.

i clearly remember tat day when i was in the bus, i haven't been sleeping many days already, 

and this song from Don Moen cam from my ipod,

Jesus, my strength n my only provider, 

you lay me down on green pastures, 

you lay me beside the still waters. 

it is then, my heart and mind is so refreshed. found peace. it was then i manage to properly sleep again.

now i wish so much, that God will speak to me again, the way He spoke to me many months back. 

i pray i pray, God..Ru listening to me? you know, God..yes, i might not feel you, i might be feeling really dry rite now, but i choose to believe. Believing how much that you have love me. 

Caz, you have written my name, Abby, in ure palms. Isiah. 

thank you father, for loving me.

震动的心旋

“是梦听见了歌，还是歌看到了梦？

 梦给我们勇气，打开紧闭的心门。”

 ~现在副刊。2011年7月9日

“曾经做过这样的梦，梦中静卧花草叶虫，

 穿过林野爬过山坡，草原辽阔任我奔冲。”

~《野人的梦》

曾几何时，我也想过在现实生活里，无忧无虑的狂奔。

在奔跑的途中享受新事物，新视线。新加坡，那么一个小的国土。

狂奔？有一望无际的草原吗？看见草原的末端就是石森林。

突然，有个冲动。

很想到一个地方，有花有草，

瀑布，草原。。。只想狂奔。。

好想闻到花香草香，感觉到烈阳的炙热，暖风轻轻吹过。

梦给我们方向。。我的梦呢？我在寻。我是寻梦者。

giving God my best

Just now after I finish gym (2hours workout, not bad!), switch on the tv while I'm resting. Pastor Credo Dollar was preaching. something he said caught my attention. He say" if you want God's power in your life, it is not free, it comes with a price. ru willing to pay the price?"

I have been trying to finish this book, "I kissed dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris. I read about this just now. 

"Many of us walk through life plagued by the question 'Has God given me His best?' But the question that we must answer first is ' am I giving God my best?'

You and I will never experience God's best- in singleness or in marriage-until we give God our all. We've help onto old attitudes, foolishly clutching a lifestyle that the world tells us will bring fulfillment. God asks us to hand it all over to Him"

many times in life, I struggle to give God my all. it is not becaz I do not want to give him my all, it is because I have always been thinking abt the worldly pleasures. going to club on weekdays when Im in Singapore, enjoying my every moment with my friends. is it really time to seek first his kingdom and righteousness? but then, when I go out with my friends, my first intention is really to build up some bonds, some meaningful relationships. I am making changes in my life right now, to live a better life. A life that have planned by Him.

This week its like going through the desert, I haven't heard from Him (at all?). ha..issit bcaz I have filled my time wth alot of activities? (like real. I dun even have plans in LAX. I was reading books, going grocery shopping, chatting. I dun even have time to watch TV.) or issit tat im too blind to see Him? (spiritual eye gone blind?) or issit tat my sins have hinder Him getting to me? (sinful nature)

my prayer before I sleep
Dear father in heaven, look down rite now into my heart. can you see me? I submit myself into your loving hands. Father, I have been longing for you, I want to meet you again. Help me to face my everyday challenges and difficulties, give me the strength to conquer my own demon, my weaknesses. Father, you are my strength and my refuge, you are the Savior of my soul, I pray Lord, that you refresh my mind, soul and body. I want to drink from you again Lord, I want to experience you in my life again. Bring me out from this dry desert, I dun wan to walk on it anymore. Help me Lord. Anoint me with Your fresh oil dear God. Give me a good nite rest tonite. thank you father, thank Jesus for a beautiful day. In the name of Jesus, amen. Thank you Jesus.

关于Bersih

刚刚在网上看了一则短片。是关于那天的和平聚会，bersih, 09.07.2011.那么平凡的一天，马来西亚那天却是那麽的不平凡。一直看，眼泪一直流，心里是那麽的痛。我的国家，曾经那么熟悉的家园，那么热闹的街道，现在变得面目全非了。这欢乐的地方，现在是痛苦回忆的开始。暴乱历历在目。心痛不是因为有所改变，心痛是因为真相被扭曲成谎言。

为什么有这么多的影片，有这么多的口供证实，这么多的证人，可以让一个猪，以政治权力来推翻一切事实真相？难道我们看到的，全世界在报道的是假的吗？究竟谁在撒谎？为什么不可以勇敢一点承认错误？如果真的没有本事可以把国家搞好，就让位吧。别霸着王位，要把国家弄垮才干愿。。

从影片开始，勇敢的人民聚在一起，反映着人民的心态和意见。这样就被喷水和被攻击，用催泪弹和化学成分的水来对付手无寸铁的人民。警察滥用职权，不断地对民众大声呼喊，粗鲁对待。人民平静得坐在马路上表示不满，换来的是警察用脚来乱踢。我们同样是马来西亚人，为什么会这样？警察不是要来保护我们的吗？为什么那天，全都变成了政治流氓？他们知道自己在做什么吗？他们没想到他们在对付的，是自己人吗？

电视的报道一直说啊，没有没有没有。。你看youtube的短片，水和催泪弹是朝着华人接生医院的方向发射的，什么45度以外？催泪气体被风吹进医院？。。是哑子吃黄莲，有口说不出。为什么就是没有人肯说出真相？做错了还一直强词夺理。

看见人民被捕，为了自由，为了国家利益被捕。这是什么道理？简直是歪理！bersih领导人被捕，被带走，为什么？他犯的是什么错？画面，有一个年长马来同胞被上手口，他一直念伊始兰教经文，它叫神帮帮我们的国家。。身边的人都哭了，因为着国家已经变成一个没栏杆的监狱了。没有言论自由，没有发表权利。真相变谎言，领袖变暴君。。一切都变了。看见猪笼车上的男生一脸无奈，我很佩服你们每一个为这国家出的一分力。你们每一个，肯站出来的都是我们的民间英雄。

我们的一票，真得可以改变马来西亚的命运吗？。。真的吗？那天，天也在哭泣。因为，神也不认得这曾充满希望和无限将来的马来西亚了。

a typical night in LAX

got up ard 730pm local time. it was still really bright. still feeling bit sleepy n tired. couldn't believe tat i din sleep much, guess ard sin time 1030am my body clock will just wake up, doesn't matter how early or how late i sleep. last nite i slept, i mean this morning i slept ard 630am (Singapore time). so, just got roughly 5hours of sleep.

had a cup of latte, the sachet tat i bought in from Taipei hotel. they have very nice latte. i think people change, and even my taste bud do change. last time i used to like coffee with lots of milk, which is the latte, but then nowadays, coffee with a dash of milk and no sugar, is enough to make me happy. i try not to take things that are too sweet. sugar will make u age faster, ha..i wonder if tats true. but sugar rush makes people happy. 

met Kah Poh when i was heading out of the hotel, hitch a one mile ride from him to Sport Chalet. we talked awhile. tot i saw him happier. He told me tat his girlfriend is sleeping, so maybe can catch up. I went to Sports chalet trying to get a new pair of running shoes, too bad no sales...so maybe nxt time when there are sales.. ha! didn manage to buy a single thing from Sports chalet. then i went to albertson nearby, buy a few toiletries, daily necessities. thought of ma n pa, bought them some anti aging face cream. stuff over here is really cheap, can u imagine, those olay wth anti aging function face wash jus selling like ard USD10? which u can never get this kind of price anywhere around the world. 

listening to Jayesslee's music now. "Price tag" and "what faith can do"is my favourite song for now. i think i kinda like them bcaz of their love for God. I have been feeling abit aimless lately, guess just need to pray more? or fellowship? or sermons?..what if all of this doesnt work? i love God, pray that will feel him more. God, where ru? Ru here in the room with me?..hold my hand, will u?..

i would love to forget the price tag. and just be who I am..la balalaika...forget about the price tag, i just wan to make the world dance...im paying with love tonight..

What Faith Can Do?

hoping to remember their lyrics. it's a beautiful song.
it stirs up my faith when i first heard it when Jayesslee perform it in City Harvest Church.  


What Faith Can Do
Songwriters: Davis, Scott; Krippayne, Scott;

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning

Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know

Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try

Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water

It'll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do

Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

Price tag

[Jessie J]
Okay, Coconut man, Moon Heads and me
You ready

Seems like everybody's got a price,
I wonder how they sleep at night.
When the sale comes first,
And the truth comes second,
Just stop for a minute and
Smile

Why is everybody so serious?
Acting so damn mysterious?
Got your shades on your eyes
And your heels so high
That you can't even have a good time

[Pre-chorus:]
Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (uh)
Can you feel that (yeah)
We're paying with love tonight

[Chorus:]
It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the price tag
Ain't about the (uh) Chi-Ching Chi-Ching
Ain't about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the price tag.

[Jessie J]
We need to take it back in time,
When music made us all unite!
And it wasn't low blows and video hoes,
Am I the only one getting tired?

Why is everybody so obsessed?
Money can't buy us happiness
Can we all slow down and enjoy right now
Guarantee we'll be feeling alright
[B.o.B]
Yeah yeah
Well, keep the price tag
And take the cash back
Just give me six strings and a half stack
And you can, can keep the cars
Leave me the garage
And all I, yes all I need
Are keys and guitars
And guess what, in 30 seconds
I'm leaving to Mars
Yeah we leaving across
These undefeatable odds
It's like this man
You can't put a price on a life
We do this for the love
So we fight and sacrifice
Every night
So we ain't gonna stumble and fall
Never
Waiting to see a sign of defeat
Uh uh
So we gonna keep everyone
Moving their feet
So bring back the beat
And then everyone sing

It's not about the money

[Chorus 2x]

[Jessie J ‒ Outro]
Yeah yeah
Oh-oh
Forget about the price tag

Jayesslee in City Harvest

I have just finished watching their you tube performance in CHC two days back. they are just simply amazing. these two beautiful young girls, having an amazing voice, gifted from heaven and loving God wholeheartedly.

I am so happy to see them in city harvest church, not only to showcase their talent, but also to share their faith. the love of God in their lives and also their selection of songs are really cool too. the first one which is more light hear ted, price tag. this is the first time I'm paying attention to the song price tag, guess every time when i saw the MTV, i was so turned off, maybe i din really like the MTV and the way the gal Jessie (her dressing is like crappy) appeared on MTV. Never realize how cool are the lyrics. especially when they sang "we'll pay them with love tonight"..ha!

yup, no doubt, their testimony is so moving. it is about how their ma have diagnose with cancer when they were just 7years old and through the whole treatment. the whole process of getting healed was frustrating, but their ma have chose to love God and praise Him even at her last breathe. they were so bitter towards God, Caz when everyone says how good God is, they just cant seems to relate it. but they saw how their ma love God, never fail to praise and worship Him, even when she suffers in so much pain. in January 11, 2002, their ma was telling Jayesslee that God have love them so much. and to Rejoice even at the darkest moment. towards the last moment of her life, she still choose to sing praise and to worship Him when she felt so weak. my heart have been so stirred when they shared this testimony, caz their ma have found peace and God, in her darkest and weakest moment. they sang the song their ma last sang, a Korean worship song titled Hallelujah.

after that they sang their own favorite song, a song that always manage to stir up their faith. surely, my faith level gone up abit, whilst I'm listening Jayesslee favorite song,stirring, stirring stirring... loving every bit of tat song, gonna tag the lyrics here.

ben jus posted this

If u spent too long holding onto e one who treats u like an "option", you'll miss e one who treats u like a "priority". Smile!

God hav put me on His priority list. I am not too worried abt how ppl treat me as an option, I jus need ppl to feel tat i am treating them like my priority. love your neighbor as u love ureself. you are who u are, not wat others tell u who u are. u are my VIP anyway..remember i old u tat, if u ask me out, u will hav my time.

Maybe, i need to rethink who is really important in my life.