San Fran 的奇遇. To Han.

今天，遇见darren 同阿han一起吃饭。同同乡的人一起吃饭，感觉真得很不同。很开心，好像见都耧有一半。用广东话写部落很辛苦。

we had such a great time together. sharing about our lives, our frustration at work, loves about life, hate at work. Somehow, i can really sense the frustration of Han. Though i do not know him well, but i know, if he can see through and breakthrough this mindset, being frustrated about why others are not working as hard as him and why others can take credit of what they didn't do. Life is such, it is never fair. In fat, this is just the way of life. Life is never fair, it all depends on how you look at it and get the best out of life. Either you can get the best out of life or life will just eat you up and get to you. Spit you out like life eating up others who is weak. Only those who are strong can survive and rise up. isn't it true? 

I am so glad, that I am meeting them up. i felt, every time after I'm able to give a piece of hope to others, i have done my job. i am not trying to be positive or Wat, i am just telling Han the fact of life. that he is indeed a winner, it is just a season. it might be a season of planting, not a season of reaping yet, but i pray that he will not give in, he will not be discouraged about things in life. Caz in the end, even no one on earth sees Wat u have done well, at least you can tell yourself, hey, you have fight a good fight, you know you have tried your best, living the best tat u can, being the best tat u can. 

Han,m if you have a chance to stumble on my blog, know Wat? I really can See tat one fine day, you will become this person, who is a successful programmer, Caz you have this talent, this gift, from God, tat no one else have it, but you. do not eager to show Wat others Wat u have, be patience, you will one day find your platform to perform, be patience, God can see what you are going through, you just need to hang on a little bit more. i dedicate this blog to you. Han. 

press on will you?!! 你是最好的。就算全世界忘了你，也要不断的为自己打气。加油！

I am the treasure

When Benjamin ask me about how I feel about looking for a relationship at my age. He have threw me a few questions. 

Asking me if I will approach a guy if i really like him.

For all these years, I have approached man. those that I like, but I seriously think that I deserve to be pursued, not the other way round, pls, you know what? God have indeed show me this verse. A man finds a good wife, seeks treasure. so, I pray, He will find me. I am his treasure, He will be able to find me. At the mean time, I will just be the best that i could ever be. And He will know it is me when he sees me. *smile. 

How am i going to maintain my relationship with him since i travel so often. 

I told Ben, I do not know what is the future like. But i am sure that when God provide, He will make a way for me. I might even stop flying. I might be having my own business already. I do not know how this is going to work, but I know, if both of us love God and love one another, nothing is too difficult. 

What is the criteria of this man who is going to be with me. 

Ben have always tell me about Xin Ling. Saying that she is a gal, who love God, love people and love herself. I guess this should be the most basic criteria that i will be looking for in a man. He must love God, love people and loving himself!! that is simple!! ha!! He have to be an outdoor person, to run with me. to explore the world with me. He will be the man of God, not afraid to follow Christ even not knowing the future. Caz God is our future. He will give you the future you have hoped for. Yup!! Amen!!

Am i looking around. What am I looking for in this man. 

I am so busy nowadays, loving people and loving God. ha ha!! I do not have time to look around. and since i am believing that he will be looking for me, if i start looking around means that my faith for God is half hear ted. If i am so convinced that God have prepared this man for me, and God have told me before that, Abby, there will be a right time to love. there is a season for everything, then why should I use my own understanding and start looking?..ha!! Have faith, wont u?

thank you Ben, I have gain so much insight and faith every time i go out with you. every testimony you share, have impacted my world. and every time i think of you, i thought, you have been such a warrior in life and you have done such a great job, pressing on and keeping your eyes onto Jesus. I wish, i have more faith like you. I wish, i will be more obedient. yup!! I will JIA YOU!!! GanBateH!!!!

Benjamin

Yesterday was absolutely action packed. I was serving all alone in the visitor's lounge!! But God is good!! I invite Thomas( my new york pax) to attend service. I had a fruitful time with Benjamin.

Coming to know more about Ben. He always manage to amaze me. Every single time i meet him, it seems like, testimony upon testimony. What God have done to him, How God have sent angels to help him thru his growing years, its just absolutely amazing. And his passion for his life and passion for Christ, it just totally attracts me!

He have been so faithful to God all these years, God have move in so many wonerful ways in his life, he is simply a living testimony!!

Yesterday we watched "Just Borrowed" about friendship and love. I was avoiding this kind of lovey dovey show for like, nine months. and last nite, becaz of Ben we went to watch the show!! OMG!! i feel so much. it is like falling in love again. I havent feel my heart so much. I mean, looking at how Rachael n Dex look at one another, the way they love one another, makes me smile, it warms my heart, to see ppl loving one  another. hm...He is on the way, I am sure. caz God have promised me. I will not be waiting too long, i know. yup!! caz He is a faithful God and He never lies!!!

Amen!! Ben is such a great fren! I am so happy tat God have placed him in my life!! Every time we meet, he never fail to push me further, makes me wan to sink deeper with Jesus!! WOOOooHOOo. Loving every bit of this awesome life!!

following God

Sometimes i wish i am stronger, in faith. why am i so weak when it comes to temptations and trials?. sometimes i am weak, but sometimes i am able to go thru the test. I wish I wish, i can be stronger. reading Psalm 119, it is like a poem, written from my heart to God. I am sure, many people out there, love God, and hate their own weaknesses, just like me. 

God, strengthen me, will you?..i want to follow you, and obey you. all the days of my life.

Psalm 119

You're blessed when you stay on course, walking steadily on the road revealed by God.
   You're blessed when you follow his directions,
      doing your best to find him.
   That's right—you don't go off on your own;
      you walk straight along the road he set.
   You, God, prescribed the right way to live;
      now you expect us to live it.
   Oh, that my steps might be steady,
      keeping to the course you set;
   Then I'd never have any regrets
      in comparing my life with your counsel.
   I thank you for speaking straight from your heart;
      I learn the pattern of your righteous ways.
   I'm going to do what you tell me to do;
      don't ever walk off and leave me.

 ^9-16 How can a young person live a clean life?
      By carefully reading the map of your Word.
   I'm single-minded in pursuit of you;
      don't let me miss the road signs you've posted.
   I've banked your promises in the vault of my heart
      so I won't sin myself bankrupt.
   Be blessed, God;
      train me in your ways of wise living.
   I'll transfer to my lips
      all the counsel that comes from your mouth;
   I delight far more in what you tell me about living
      than in gathering a pile of riches.
   I ponder every morsel of wisdom from you,
      I attentively watch how you've done it.
   I relish everything you've told me of life,
      I won't forget a word of it.

 ^17-24 Be generous with me and I'll live a full life;
      not for a minute will I take my eyes off your road.
   Open my eyes so I can see
      what you show me of your miracle-wonders.
   I'm a stranger in these parts;
      give me clear directions.
   My soul is starved and hungry, ravenous!—
      insatiable for your nourishing commands.
   And those who think they know so much,
      ignoring everything you tell them—let them have it!
   Don't let them mock and humiliate me;
      I've been careful to do just what you said.
   While bad neighbors maliciously gossip about me,
      I'm absorbed in pondering your wise counsel.
   Yes, your sayings on life are what give me delight;
      I listen to them as to good neighbors!

 ^25-32 I'm feeling terrible—I couldn't feel worse!
      Get me on my feet again. You promised, remember?
   When I told my story, you responded;
      train me well in your deep wisdom.
   Help me understand these things inside and out
      so I can ponder your miracle-wonders.
   My sad life's dilapidated, a falling-down barn;
      build me up again by your Word.
   Barricade the road that goes Nowhere;
      grace me with your clear revelation.
   I choose the true road to Somewhere,
      I post your road signs at every curve and corner.
   I grasp and cling to whatever you tell me;
      God, don't let me down!
   I'll run the course you lay out for me
      if you'll just show me how.

 ^33-40 God, teach me lessons for living
      so I can stay the course.
   Give me insight so I can do what you tell me—
      my whole life one long, obedient response.
   Guide me down the road of your commandments;
      I love traveling this freeway!
   Give me a bent for your words of wisdom,
      and not for piling up loot.
   Divert my eyes from toys and trinkets,
      invigorate me on the pilgrim way.
   Affirm your promises to me—
      promises made to all who fear you.
   Deflect the harsh words of my critics—
      but what you say is always so good.
   See how hungry I am for your counsel;
      preserve my life through your righteous ways!

 ^41-48 Let your love, God, shape my life
      with salvation, exactly as you promised;
   Then I'll be able to stand up to mockery
      because I trusted your Word.
   Don't ever deprive me of truth, not ever—
      your commandments are what I depend on.
   Oh, I'll guard with my life what you've revealed to me,
      guard it now, guard it ever;
   And I'll stride freely through wide open spaces
      as I look for your truth and your wisdom;
   Then I'll tell the world what I find,
      speak out boldly in public, unembarrassed.
   I cherish your commandments—oh, how I love them!—
      relishing every fragment of your counsel.

 ^49-56 Remember what you said to me, your servant—
      I hang on to these words for dear life!
   These words hold me up in bad times;
      yes, your promises rejuvenate me.
   The insolent ridicule me without mercy,
      but I don't budge from your revelation.
   I watch for your ancient landmark words,
      and know I'm on the right track.
   But when I see the wicked ignore your directions,
      I'm beside myself with anger.
   I set your instructions to music
      and sing them as I walk this pilgrim way.
   I meditate on your name all night, God,
      treasuring your revelation, O God.
   Still, I walk through a rain of derision
      because I live by your Word and counsel.

 ^57-64 Because you have satisfied me, God, I promise
      to do everything you say.
   I beg you from the bottom of my heart: smile,
      be gracious to me just as you promised.
   When I took a long, careful look at your ways,
      I got my feet back on the trail you blazed.
   I was up at once, didn't drag my feet,
      was quick to follow your orders.
   The wicked hemmed me in—there was no way out—
      but not for a minute did I forget your plan for me.
   I get up in the middle of the night to thank you;
      your decisions are so right, so true—I can't wait till morning!
   I'm a friend and companion of all who fear you,
      of those committed to living by your rules.
   Your love, God, fills the earth!
      Train me to live by your counsel.

 ^65-72 Be good to your servant, God;
      be as good as your Word.
   Train me in good common sense;
      I'm thoroughly committed to living your way.
   Before I learned to answer you, I wandered all over the place,
      but now I'm in step with your Word.
   You are good, and the source of good;
      train me in your goodness.
   The godless spread lies about me,
      but I focus my attention on what you are saying;
   They're bland as a bucket of lard,
      while I dance to the tune of your revelation.
   My troubles turned out all for the best—
      they forced me to learn from your textbook.
   Truth from your mouth means more to me
      than striking it rich in a gold mine.

 ^73-80 With your very own hands you formed me;
      now breathe your wisdom over me so I can understand you.
   When they see me waiting, expecting your Word,
      those who fear you will take heart and be glad.
   I can see now, God, that your decisions are right;
      your testing has taught me what's true and right.
   Oh, love me—and right now!—hold me tight!
      just the way you promised.
   Now comfort me so I can live, really live;
      your revelation is the tune I dance to.
   Let the fast-talking tricksters be exposed as frauds;
      they tried to sell me a bill of goods,
      but I kept my mind fixed on your counsel.
   Let those who fear you turn to me
      for evidence of your wise guidance.
   And let me live whole and holy, soul and body,
      so I can always walk with my head held high.

 ^81-88 I'm homesick—longing for your salvation;
      I'm waiting for your word of hope.
   My eyes grow heavy watching for some sign of your promise;
      how long must I wait for your comfort?
   There's smoke in my eyes—they burn and water,
      but I keep a steady gaze on the instructions you post.
   How long do I have to put up with all this?
      How long till you haul my tormentors into court?
   The arrogant godless try to throw me off track,
      ignorant as they are of God and his ways.
   Everything you command is a sure thing,
      but they harass me with lies. Help!
   They've pushed and pushed—they never let up—
      but I haven't relaxed my grip on your counsel.
   In your great love revive me
      so I can alertly obey your every word.

 ^89-96 What you say goes, God,
      and stays, as permanent as the heavens.
   Your truth never goes out of fashion;
      it's as up-to-date as the earth when the sun comes up.
   Your Word and truth are dependable as ever;
      that's what you ordered—you set the earth going.
   If your revelation hadn't delighted me so,
      I would have given up when the hard times came.
   But I'll never forget the advice you gave me;
      you saved my life with those wise words.
   Save me! I'm all yours.
      I look high and low for your words of wisdom.
   The wicked lie in ambush to destroy me,
      but I'm only concerned with your plans for me.
   I see the limits to everything human,
      but the horizons can't contain your commands!

 ^97-104 Oh, how I love all you've revealed;
      I reverently ponder it all the day long.
   Your commands give me an edge on my enemies;
      they never become obsolete.
   I've even become smarter than my teachers
      since I've pondered and absorbed your counsel.
   I've become wiser than the wise old sages
      simply by doing what you tell me.
   I watch my step, avoiding the ditches and ruts of evil
      so I can spend all my time keeping your Word.
   I never make detours from the route you laid out;
      you gave me such good directions.
   Your words are so choice, so tasty;
      I prefer them to the best home cooking.
   With your instruction, I understand life;
      that's why I hate false propaganda.

 ^105-112 By your words I can see where I'm going;
      they throw a beam of light on my dark path.
   I've committed myself and I'll never turn back
      from living by your righteous order.
   Everything's falling apart on me, God;
      put me together again with your Word.
   Festoon me with your finest sayings, God;
      teach me your holy rules.
   My life is as close as my own hands,
      but I don't forget what you have revealed.
   The wicked do their best to throw me off track,
      but I don't swerve an inch from your course.
   I inherited your book on living; it's mine forever—
      what a gift! And how happy it makes me!
   I concentrate on doing exactly what you say—
      I always have and always will.

 ^113-120 I hate the two-faced,
      but I love your clear-cut revelation.
   You're my place of quiet retreat;
      I wait for your Word to renew me.
   Get out of my life, evildoers,
      so I can keep my God's commands.
   Take my side as you promised; I'll live then for sure.
      Don't disappoint all my grand hopes.
   Stick with me and I'll be all right;
      I'll give total allegiance to your definitions of life.
   Expose all who drift away from your sayings;
      their casual idolatry is lethal.
   You reject earth's wicked as so much rubbish;
      therefore I lovingly embrace everything you say.
   I shiver in awe before you;
      your decisions leave me speechless with reverence.

 ^121-128 I stood up for justice and the right;
      don't leave me to the mercy of my oppressors.
   Take the side of your servant, good God;
      don't let the godless take advantage of me.
   I can't keep my eyes open any longer, waiting for you
      to keep your promise to set everything right.
   Let your love dictate how you deal with me;
      teach me from your textbook on life.
   I'm your servant—help me understand what that means,
      the inner meaning of your instructions.
   It's time to act, God;
      they've made a shambles of your revelation!
   Yea-Saying God, I love what you command,
      I love it better than gold and gemstones;
   Yea-Saying God, I honor everything you tell me,
      I despise every deceitful detour.

 ^129-136 Every word you give me is a miracle word—
      how could I help but obey?
   Break open your words, let the light shine out,
      let ordinary people see the meaning.
   Mouth open and panting,
      I wanted your commands more than anything.
   Turn my way, look kindly on me,
      as you always do to those who personally love you.
   Steady my steps with your Word of promise
      so nothing malign gets the better of me.
   Rescue me from the grip of bad men and women
      so I can live life your way.
   Smile on me, your servant;
      teach me the right way to live.
   I cry rivers of tears
      because nobody's living by your book!

 ^137-144 You are right and you do right, God;
      your decisions are right on target.
   You rightly instruct us in how to live
      ever faithful to you.
   My rivals nearly did me in,
      they persistently ignored your commandments.
   Your promise has been tested through and through,
      and I, your servant, love it dearly.
   I'm too young to be important,
      but I don't forget what you tell me.
   Your righteousness is eternally right,
      your revelation is the only truth.
   Even though troubles came down on me hard,
      your commands always gave me delight.
   The way you tell me to live is always right;
      help me understand it so I can live to the fullest.

 ^145-152 I call out at the top of my lungs,
      "God! Answer! I'll do whatever you say."
   I called to you, "Save me
      so I can carry out all your instructions."
   I was up before sunrise,
      crying for help, hoping for a word from you.
   I stayed awake all night,
      prayerfully pondering your promise.
   In your love, listen to me;
      in your justice, God, keep me alive.
   As those out to get me come closer and closer,
      they go farther and farther from the truth you reveal;
   But you're the closest of all to me, God,
      and all your judgments true.
   I've known all along from the evidence of your words
      that you meant them to last forever.

 ^153-160 Take a good look at my trouble, and help me—
      I haven't forgotten your revelation.
   Take my side and get me out of this;
      give me back my life, just as you promised.
   "Salvation" is only gibberish to the wicked
      because they've never looked it up in your dictionary.
   Your mercies, God, run into the billions;
      following your guidelines, revive me.
   My antagonists are too many to count,
      but I don't swerve from the directions you gave.
   I took one look at the quitters and was filled with loathing;
      they walked away from your promises so casually!
   Take note of how I love what you tell me;
      out of your life of love, prolong my life.
   Your words all add up to the sum total: Truth.
      Your righteous decisions are eternal.

 ^161-168 I've been slandered unmercifully by the politicians,
      but my awe at your words keeps me stable.
   I'm ecstatic over what you say,
      like one who strikes it rich.
   I hate lies—can't stand them!—
      but I love what you have revealed.
   Seven times each day I stop and shout praises
      for the way you keep everything running right.
   For those who love what you reveal, everything fits—
      no stumbling around in the dark for them.
   I wait expectantly for your salvation;
      God, I do what you tell me.
   My soul guards and keeps all your instructions—
      oh, how much I love them!
   I follow your directions, abide by your counsel;
      my life's an open book before you.

 ^169-176 Let my cry come right into your presence, God;
      provide me with the insight that comes only from your Word.
   Give my request your personal attention,
      rescue me on the terms of your promise.
   Let praise cascade off my lips;
      after all, you've taught me the truth about life!
   And let your promises ring from my tongue;
      every order you've given is right.
   Put your hand out and steady me
      since I've chosen to live by your counsel.
   I'm homesick, God, for your salvation;
      I love it when you show yourself!
   Invigorate my soul so I can praise you well,
      use your decrees to put iron in my soul.
   And should I wander off like a lost sheep—seek me!
      I'll recognize the sound of your voice.

American culture

When i saw this young beautiful, black girl dancing in front of the store, i was admiring and smiling straight from my heart. She look so happy, pretty and carefree. Then i remember when i was in Dubai Mall a year back, I saw this set of crew in the food court, started to dance at this peak hour!! burst out dancing with lots of laughter, actions and loud catchy music!! same thing happened when i was eating in the food court in Johannesburg, this restaurant, call Billy Bombers. the whole restaurant..everyone was dancing!! from the chef, to waitress, to cashier, to bar maid!!..OMG!! welcome to American culture!! will it ever happen in Asia?..hardly

America, America. Where there is alot of possibilities. Where dreams are fulfilled. It is so true. everyone respects and  another. they listen to your idea, your craziest idea and think it is possible. wat u need is just courage to step out and dare to be different, that is the culture. not like Asia, begging to be the same, begging to fit in, to be the same, not to standout. outstanding is a big no no..Every time when i land into USA, i have a feeling of freedom..its the freedom that i love, the freedom. 

I thank God for this job, allowing me to live, stay and experience every different culture, places, country and still go back home to where all my friends are. Thank God for this wonderful job!! God, this is just so great.

A song dedicated for me

I was in the cab just now. waiting for sms. i guess i was so used to reading sms from the phone. maybe its like an attachment. hoping someone will welcome me or miss me when I'm away from Singapore. ha! one sms, from Kevin. He say will join me on Sunday service. which is really great. Ha!!

then in my mind, i suddenly feel ab it lonely. I thought about stuff, about relationship and boyfriend. I thought to myself. I'm not getting married now, because I dun wan to? why am i not hitched yet? I was thinking about other people's love story, Kelly, my friend, who met a passenger and get married. then Irene Koo, she was such a nice girl, then met this junior GS n get married. I was thinking, maybe i haven't met anyone yet, its because God knows, its not time yet. the time will come. I am sure. I will just be myself, love God, love people around me, serve God.

Then I was thinking, God, I need some love. BOOM!! this song just came out from the radio. ha!! I was smiling all the way. 

P.j. & Duncan: Eternal Love

I'll give you my love an eternal love
from me to you if you return
A token of love an eternal love
from you to me I'll give my love

So promise me (will you promise me)
and I'll promise you an eternal love, eternal love.

Back in the days when we first met
those time we had I'm never gonna forget
long summer nights and lazy days
we knew our love was not a passing phase
suntan lotion that familiar smell
I made you a necklace from a chain of shells
the sand on my feet and the warm sea breeze
a kind of romance that's hard to believe

yellow is the color i feel when i listen to this song, caz its the color of sunshine.

The answer

Ive prayed this morning. to give Adrian word of encouragement through Pastor Phil's book. BUT GOD. i have been flipping through that book a while, but couldn't find anything that is suitable. I prayed.and God showed me this. 

Chapter 28. When you cant interpret whats going on in your life. 

Somehow I know God is really moving in Adrian's life. Though sometimes we do not have the interpretation, BUT GOD is a good God, He love us. I guess, at this time we just need to have faith and keep believing. "All things work for good for those who love God" all things means every single little thing we do, that happened. nothing He's not sure or He dunno. I'm believing, ALL THINGS WORKS FOR GOOD.. we will see the big picture when we reach there. 

Thank you Father for this wonderful day. I had a good rest.

God's message to Adrian.

we might not understand what's going on in life..BUT GOD understands completely.

Genesis41:16 reminds us who is the great interpreter" Joseph answered."i cannot, your majesty, BUT GOD will give a favorable interpretation"
          The king of Egypt had a dream he didn't understand, something he could not interpret. He knew it had great significance, but he had no idea what it meant.
          All of us encounter mysteries along our journey in life. We don't know why someone died. We don't understand why we found ourselves i a predicament beyond our control. we cant explain why we made certain decisions that have disadvantaged us.
          Joseph told the king that he could not interpret the dream on his own. BUT GOD would give a favorable interpretation. Even though he was an innocent man, mistreated by his own brother, sold as a slave, jailed unjustly, forgotten and deserted, Joseph maintained great attitude.

          ...If we lose a pure heart, we lose our ability to see. The apostle John tells us that if we hate our brother, we walk in darkness and cannot see or know where we are going( see 1John 2:11), Jesus told us that the our i heart are blessed and that they shall "see"God(see Matthew 5:8)


         ..When he heard the dream, Joseph cold immediately see the translation. The dream predicted seven years of abundance, then seven years of famine. Joseph then advised the king to store up reserves in the time of abundance so he would ave enough for himself and others during the famine. The king took Joseph's advice, which ultimately led to Egypt becoming the wealthiest, most powerful nation on earth during that time.

You might have trouble reading the mysteries in your life...BUT GOD is able to interpret them, provide you with insight, and bring you to prosperity!!

text taken from "BUT GOD" by Phil Pringle Chapter 28

a catholic cremation

Adrian's grandma just pass away this noon. it have been a long day. but then Wat i want to achieve today is to give comfort to him who needs it. I saw him crying, i saw his mother crying. it is hard to say goodbye, even though you know she is going to heaven. and at those beautiful shore you will meet again, you simply just miss her. thank God, she is a christian, she believes in Jesus. at least one day, they will meet again. 

I have spent my time with him today, just to show some support and also to care. I know he have been tired and lost. I pray that God will give him comfort and peace. 

who is the boss

God nudge me again this time. i wan to promise myself. I dun wan to go party or drink anymore. the feeling was just horrible. getting drunk and doing all sorts of nonsense. I totally regret of my outing and getting drunk. last nite, though i simply had a good time. i was just eating my noodle, hungry, maybe i have vomited so much, till my stomach is empty.

no more parties or drinks this month.?.or a long long time. i dun like the feeling of getting drunk. dun like being controlled by alcohol. i tot i will not drink!!! 02 lor..b4 i go, i promised myself tat i will not drink..wat is tis?..i let myself down this time.

Ezikiel 37:1-14

Ezekiel 37

The Valley of Dry Bones

 ¹ The hand of the LORD was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the LORD and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. ² He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. ³ He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?”

   I said, “Sovereign LORD, you alone know.”

 ⁴ Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD! ^5[a] enter you, and you will come to life. ⁶ I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the LORD.’” This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath

 ⁷ So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. ⁸ I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.

 ⁹ Then he said to me, “Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, ‘This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.’” ¹⁰ So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.

 ¹¹ Then he said to me: “Son of man, these bones are the people of Israel. They say, ‘Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.’ ¹² Therefore prophesy and say to them: ‘This is what the Sovereign LORD says: My people, I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel. ¹³ Then you, my people, will know that I am the LORD, when I open your graves and bring you up from them. ¹⁴ I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the LORD have spoken, and I have done it, declares the LORD.’”

Bible study in Jurong

It have been a good day. you know. lately i haven't have much sleep, but I was thinking, WATS up?..even if i do not have enough sleep, as long as I have enough fun, that should be OK. ha..n guess Wat i read when i use my IPhone bible apps. ha!! it was rick warren's bible reading plan. it hit straight to my heart. that day, whilst i was sick, i read the bible plan, it was talking abt health. ha!! God truly knows my heart.

The bible plan for today was about asking me not to be overload myself with activities everyday. Caz when I'm too tired, i will be in the survival mode, and after tat eve thing will be focus on just abt me. I have been reading bible for the past week. everyday i was just simply too tired to read my Bible, too tired to have quiet time with God, too tired to pray. even though something bad have happened to Kevin, David and Jo. Kokho's grandma passed away. I haven't been really caring for ppl who really need me.

I guess, its really time for me to re look into my own life again. n spend more time with God.

Tonie was really good. zhi seng came on time, Adrian was early. we had dinner cooked by my dear cousin. it was a good dinner. hm..the preaching was good. I have not been reading the bible for such a long time, there are so many stories which i have ye to know, I have yet to read. I want to finish my bible in a year time. I will try hard to finish my bible. today the verse tat i love most is abt God breathing to the dry bones. giving them life again.

Ma was sick

Gotta record this down before i forget the goodness of God. 

you know. many a times, i keep forgetting how good God have been to me in my life. 

Ever since last saturday, whn Pastor John Avanazi came to visit our church in Expo. He ws praying for healing that day towards the end of the service. He asked ppl to come to the alter and let pastors to pray for them for healing. hm...now Im confuse, i might got the day wrong. anyway..the thing is. last last saturyda. everysince i prayed for myself for healing of asthma, i neevr take a single dose of asthma medication!!! Hurray!! isint this a pience of wonderful news?!! OMG!! i think it is simply amazing. 

another thing is, that day i went to work in Dubai. it was a 5days trip. in fact i was feeling rather healthy and chirpy. didnt know why, i was sick on the 2nd day when i was in dubai. haha..just out of no where. after i came bck from shopping of turkish delights, boom. i was sick. down with high fever and running nose.. my nose did actually ran away from me. haha!! anyway. thing is. i was so sick, without medication and stuff, dunno wat to do. i can only pray. haha...God is my healer!! i was healed. i am so sure..it is God. with only 6capsules of panadol and nyquil (from my collegue, rashid), i am totally healed. 

God have been really showing his power to me. His healing power. Ma was sick the day when she came to singapore. In fact, before she came to visit. i have the urge to call her to ask her not to come. haiks.. why didn i listen to the Holy spirit?..I pray that God will heal ma's heart condition. He have done it once, I am so sure, He will do it again. thank you God. thank you that you have alreadi healed my ma.

A believer

What is a believer? A believer is a person who believes when all things fail, when nothing works, when there is no hope. As a believer of Christ, I should believe, that God will not fail me, God will work, God loves me in the given worst situation of circumstances.

I have found this poem from the book Hope from Pastor Phil very touching.

The park bench was deserted as I sat down to read

Beneath the long, straggly branches of an old willow tree.

Disillusioned by life with good reason to frown, 

for the world was intent on dragging me down. 

And if that weren't enough to ruin my day, 

A young boy out of breath approached me, all tired from play. 

He stood right before me with his head tilted down

And said with great excitement, Look what I found!

In his hand was a flower, and what a pitiful sight, 

With its petals all worn- not enough rain or too little light. 

wanting him to take his dead flower and go off to play . 

I faked a smile and then shifted away. 

But instead of retreating he sat next to my side. 

He placed the flower to his nose and declared with overacted surprise, 

It sure smells pretty and its beautiful, too. 

That's why i picked it. Here, its for you.

The weed before me was dying or dead. 

Not vibrant of colors of orange, yellow, or red. 

But i knew I must take it, or he might never leave. 

So i reached for the flower and replied, Just what i need. 

But instead of him placing the flower in my hand, 

He held it in midair without reason or plan. 

It was then that i noticed for the very first time

that weed toting boy could not see: he was blind.

I heard my voice quiver, tears shone like the sun

As I thanked him for picking the very best one. 

You're welcome, he smiled, and then ran off to play, 

Unaware of the impact he'd had on my day. 

I sat there and wondered how he managed to see

A self pitying woman beneath an old willow tree. 

How did he know of my self indulged plight?

Perhaps from his heart, He been blessed with true sight.

Through the eyes of a blind child, at last i could see 

the problem was not with the world, the problem was me. 

And for all of those times i myself had been blind.

i vowed to see the beauty in life and appreciate every second that's mine. 

And then i held that wilted flower up to my nose

And breathed in the fragrance of a beautiful rose

and smiled as i watched that young boy, another weed in his hand

about to change the life, of an unsuspecting old man. 

this is the story of the day. that reminds me, who i am. in christ. to see with my heart, not by my sight.

I want to thank God for this Taipei flight, one of my favorite flight. I got called up!! ha! n just in time for service to church on Sunday. .thank you Jesus.